Psychopathic Serenity
I like morbid art, facial hair, and anything classified as bizarre. I'm 17, straight edge, and very opinionated. Although I may come off as an asshole sometimes, I'm not, so go ahead and ask me some questions if you'd like.
Anonymous Asked: I think your blog is pretty neat.
Answer:Thank you!
I try my best to post interesting/rad content.
Am I cool yet? Does this make me trendy and popular?
Maybe I should of put a random upside down cross, that would make me cool right? haha lololol
Kids nowadays are idiots.
A summary of my life over these past few months
Soooo, I just thought I’d bring all my followers up to date on my life! I’ll start off with my love life. So I’m not sure if you guys recall but I was dating this one white girl, a blonde, and of course like every other girl I was head over heels for her and was already planning our future together and stupid shit like that, I get attached really easily, and I got REALLY attached to this one because she was the only girl I had ever… kissed, cuddled with, was able to hang out with while my friends were around, took home to meet my parents, spent valentines with, bought things for, could be myself around, and WANTED to be around, well bad things happened, and long story short, she got bored of me, got fed up with my clingyness, and simply fell out of love with me, and left me… then I found out a bunch of other things after it was over and I don’t hate her now, but I definitely don’t like her, partially because she was very childish, stubborn, and hypocritical but that’s whole different story. Well after days of sobbing like a bitch and wallowing in self remorse, idk why, but I started talking to my previous ex before this girl, I think I originally started talking to her again because I wanted to apoligize for leaving her for another girl and leaving so abruptly, I just had this guilt that I had done her wrong and I wanted to say sorry… well she apoligized for all the things she did to me too, and we became friends, but then… idk… it started to feel like the old days, and she was kinda giving hints, so we started talking more seriously, but without anything happening, just talking, well those hours and hours of talking eventually grew to attraction and BAM, everything I had with this girl was back, and we would talk to eachother everyday, and for those first two or three weeks, it was nice, we videochatted, talked on the phone, and were planning to see eachother! well… sadly, one day I got a text from my friend asking me if I was still talking to “that one girl”… she told me that her friend told her that she had been seeing her around school with a guy, all up on eachother, kissing, holding, the usual boyfriend girlfriend stuff, me like the optimistic idiot I am told my friend she was probably just confused, and happily I confronted her and asked her about the guy my friend spoke of, I wasn’t even worried, that’s how much I trusted her… but… she told me, EXACTLY what I didn’t want to hear, it turns out she had been dating some guy since like feb. so that means, she had been with this guy the WHOLE time I had been talking to her, romantically, with intentions of getting back together, and she never once told me about this guy. I couldn’t complain though, she was never mine, it’s not like she was cheating on my since she was never with me, but damn, it sure did hurt… and I had really grown to like her a lot again. Well now, I’m talking to no one, and I’m trying to be independent, maintain a happy life by myself but its hard, I have no one to talk to now, about deep stuff you know? I mean I guess I can talk to my friends about deep things, and stuff that bothers me, or things that interest me but… sometimes I feel like I really just annoy all my friends, and they’re amazing kids, I love them to death but they’re really nothing like me, and they’re are certain things I can’t tell them. So, I do get pretty lonely nowadays. I’ve been trying to spend more time with my friends lately, but that’s really difficult because I live so extremely far away from them, the only time i’m genuinely happy anymore is when I’m around my friends, yet I barely get to see them because of this damn distance. Junior year just ended, and summer has started, I’m almost an adult now and I have so much on my mind! I’m not passing highschool of course, i’m not going to be receiving a diploma so life is going to be THAT much harder for me, I need to work on my art, and become more skilled and professional because the only choice I have is to become a tattoo artist and if I fail at that… I don’t know what will become of me, I don’t want to be a loser, I don’t want to stay in this town. I also just performed my poetry live at a coffeeshop recently, it was nice, I fucked up multiple times but I enjoyed myself. Idk, life at the moment feels sooo bland, so pointless, I feel like i’m going nowhere, yet I also feel like I’m going so extremely fast that I’m missing out on life… I pretty much missed out on being a teenager because of my god damn social anxiety and shyness. Life sucks right now, but then again, life is pretty cool.
I’m happy and stressed.
I have a feeling things are going to start going well though, I can just feel it… but maybe that’s just my overly optimistic attitude getting the best of me again, but oh well, without hope, I have nothing.
but anyways…..
I’m going to start posting a lot more writings, because I know I a lot of you guys miss it. This will be my last teen angsty post for awhile.
lol, who am I even talking to? no one pays attention to this blog, but if you did read this… then thanks, I appreciate it.
Stay rad kiddos <3
